The Bucket of Wet!

Not Again!

Today has not been the greatest day.  First off, my cousin highlighted my hair last night and we put too much in.  So now my hair isn't a regular shade of blonde as it should be.  It is [this close] to being bleach blonde!  AHHH!  She was supposed to do it weeks ago that way if it was messed up I could get it done professionally before having to go back to school.  That didn't happen.  Today was the first day of winter quarter.  I had to wear it in a ponytail because I was too embarassed to wear it down.  It is too light for my complection.  Grr.

Second, when I got home, my roommate was very mad because my dogs were howling.  He tried putting them in their cage.  Didn't help.  He put one of them into his dog's cage, and that didn't help. I almost started crying.  Apparently they were at it all night so he didn't get any sleep until I got home at 4am.  Which brings me to another point.  I told my cousin I had to be up at 9 so we had to do my hair early.  She called me at 8:30p and told me she was gonna do it.  I could deal with that.  But then she wanted to watch a movie first, and since I had stuff to do first, I told her to watch it, and then I can come over and we could do my hair when the movie was over.  Well, she didn't start the movie until I got there because she was putting stuff away that she had bought at Walmart earlier.  She didn't end up doing it until 12:30a.  I should have just said "Fuck It" and left at 11 like I had been thinking.  I wouldn't have ended up with bad hair, and my roommate wouldn't have yelled at me.

On to school.  My Geography class won't be too hard I think, but the professor is an asshole.  He talked for the entire hour about laptops and cell phones and talking in class.  How he would call the police if he were to ask someone to leave and they don't.  How he will tell you to leave if you walk in even a minute after class begins.  I mean, it was the first day.  Some poor guy walked in about 5 minutes in while the prof was talking about coming in late, and pointed it out to everyone.  He was completely silent while the kid walked to his seat, and then when the kid asked someone if he could look at their syllabus, he said something to the affect of "first you walk in late, and now you are talking to the poeple next to you.  Not only are you disrupting them, but everyone in the entire class."  The only disruption I noticed was when he kept pointing it out and standing there staring at the people.  Not to mention that he kept saying that it was a waste of everyone's time when people are disruptive.  I wanted to yell out that him blabbing about shit I already know is a waste of MY time.  The class was just over an hour long, and we didn't move on from his 'classroom behavior lecture' until there was about 5 minutes left.  Then he threw a PP slide at us, and took it down before it could all be copied.  Which really sucks because he gave us no class outline.  This is the first class in 3 years where I haven't been given an outline of what to read and have done for next class.  AND he refuses to post Power Points online, and he won't send notes.  AND he also refuses to let people take notes using their laptops, which is much more quick and efficient.  So, there will be plenty of people that won't get to copy all of the notes because most people type.

My second class sucked too.  I won't go into it though because as soon as I got home I dropped it.  We were expected to go to a different museum around the Dayton area each week.  That means not only taking class time, study time, and homework time for it, but also taking out of my schedule to fit in a museum visit each week.  She also wanted us to set up a blog on Wordpress.com and keep a daily blog about our research.  That means doing research and blogging about it daily, which really sucks.  Then we have a huge research paper due, and a second one that is collaborative.  I hate group projects.  Not to mention that it is also to be done weekly, with blogs to and from other members in your group.  The exams are all essay and there are 4 books.  I wasn't about to let a stupid HST class that I didn't have to have takeover my entire life.  

About 5 minutes after I got home, my roommate drove up.  I opened the door, a little suprised that he was home so early.  I asked him if he came home for lunch, and he shook his head no and said that he was sick.  In the almost 9 months that I have lived with him, he has never missed a day of work or came home sick before.  He told me that both of his brothers got sick earlier that morning and now he has it, and to stay away because he felt terrible and didn't want to get me sick.  My maternal instincts kinda kicked in.  He laid down on the couch and I got him water and a trashcan.  I was in my room for about an hour when I went to grab some lunch from the kitchen.  He had pulled his coat over him and was trying to curl himself into a ball underneath it, which isn't an easy thing to do when you are over 6 feet tall.  So I covered him up.  When my food was done, I was eating in my room and I could hear him run to the bathroom and get sick.  I have never heard someone puke so loud in my life.  Thank God I don't have a weak stomach.  I just kept eating.  If I had seen him doing it, then it might not have happened the same way lol.  His fever broke shortly after he woke up from a second nap.  He asked if I could get him a slice of wheat bread..which he doesn't like, and I later found him trying to munch on stale Honey Nut Cheerios lol.  Hopefully, I don't get sick too.

Oh, and I checked all the classes I still need to take so I could fill up the slot from the class I dropped, and only one of them was offered this quarter at a time that I couldn't do.  So, now I am down to only 3 classes meaning it will take even more time for me to graduate.  Yay.

There is one thing that is good right now though.  I have tomorrow to look forward too.  Apart from having to get up 5 hours from now and go to class, I am excited.  I am taking a Political Science course with Paul Leonard.  I had him last quarter and he was amazing.  Good thing I have him early, he can jump start me with a good day.  Then I have Philosophy.  I don't really know what to expect from the course, but I have heard great things about the prof, so that makes it a little better.

music with scenes

1   How Would I Die Carter Burwell (Score)

Preface narrated while a deer is hunted

2   Full Moon The Black Ghosts (Soundtrack)

Leaving Phoenix

      In the cruiser with Charlie; Meet Billy and Jacob Black

3   Who Are They? Carter Burwell (Score)

First day of school.  Lunch; Jessica explaining the Cullen family

Biology classroom-strange looks from Edward

4   Eyes On Fire Blue Foundation (Soundtrack)

On the phone with Renee; Flash to Edward's eyes

2nd day of school.  Cullens pull into school without Edward

     Edward is a no-show for a few days

5   Who Are They? (repeat)

Security guard at Griffin Mill being chased by 'something'

     Charlie gets Bella new tires and tells her about the security guard

     Eric tries to ask Bella to prom, only to be interrupted by Mike

6   Phascination Phase Carter Burwell (Score)

Edward introduces himself; together Bella and Edward earn the golden 

  onion during the mitosis lab while they discuss the reason Bella moved

  to Forks

Bella asks Edward if he got contacts...and he walks off

     Parking lot glances

7  Tremble For My Beloved Collective Soul (Soundtrack)

Edward saves Bella from being crushed by Tyler's van

     Bella is checked out by Carlisle Cullen at the hospital

     Bella asks Edward how he saved her, but he doesn't tell her

8   I Dreamt Of Edward Carter Burwell (Score)

Bella dreams of Edward for the first time

Bella stands in the lot as school and thinks about the accident

     Mike asks Bella to Prom but Bella says she is gonna be in Jacksonville

     Greenhouse - Edward tells Bella that he was able to stop the van because he 

        had an adrenaline rush

     Edward tells her he is sorry for being so rude; "we shouldn't be friends"

     Charlie and Bella have brief chat in kitchen about Renee and Phil

     Edward gives Bella a funny look at lunch

     Bella is invited to go to La Push Beach

     Edible art - Edward tells Bella he wants to be friends but that it is a bad idea

        "What if I'm not the superhero?  What if I'm the bad guy?"

        Bella wants to hangout

     La Push Beach - Jacob (Embry and Sam also) meet the group

9   Treaty Carter Burwell (Score)

Jacob tells Bella about the Quileutes descending from wolves and the

  treaty with the "pale faces"

10 Nomads Carter Burwell (Score)

Waylon is killed by the nomad vampires in his boat

      Bella googles Quileute Legends

      Bella goes to Port Angeles with Angela and Jessica to get Prom dresses

11 I Caught Myself Paramore (Soundtrack)

Trying on dresses

      Bella goes the bookstore

12 Humans are Predators Too Carter Burwell (Score)

Some guys follow Bella into an alley

Edward rescues Bella from the guys

      Bella and Edward meet Angela and Jessica in front of the restaurant 

13 Never Think Robert Pattinson (Soundtrack)

Bella Italia and Bella wants answers

14 I Know What You Are Carter Burwell (Score)

Edward drives Bella home and their hands touch (his are cold)

They notice Chief Swan's and Carlisle's cars are still at the station

Bella sees Waylon's feet and pictures Edward in her head

15 The Most Dangerous Predator Carter Burwell (Score)

Bella tells Edward she knows what he is

      Edward shows himself in the sunlight and she trusts him

16 The Skin of a Killer Carter Burwell (Score)

"My family is different from others of our kind"

"You're like me own personal brand of heroin"

17 The Lion Fell In Love With The Lamb   Carter Burwell (Score)

Edward talks about himsel and Bella claims that she isn't afraid of him

"You have to tell me what you're thinking"

Bella is afraid of losing Edward

"You don't know how long I've waited for you"

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"

"what a stupid lamb"

"what a sick masochistic lion"

Laying in the meadow

Bella wakes up - "About three things...," Edward is waiting outside 

      Eric is talking about Prom theme of Monte Carlo

      Angela is looking through the camera - "Oh My God"

18 Spotlight (Twilight Remix) Mutemath (Soundtrack)

Edward and Bella pull up to school in the Volvo

"I'm breaking all the rules now anyway, since I'm going to hell."

19 Spotlight (Twilight Remix) Mutemath (Soundtrack)

      Complications Carter Burwell (Score)

      (songs go back and forth throughout the scene)

Bella and Edward are walking about becoming a vampire

Flashbacks (Edward and Esme being changed)

"I don't want to be a monster"

      Edward jumps (scene switches) and lands on Bellas Truck

      Edward tells Bella he is taking her to meet his family

20 Complications Carter Burwell ( Score)

Edward says "complication" and states he will pick her up tomorrow

Edward drives past Billy and Jacob

Billy and Jacob come over to watch a game

21 Dinner With His Family Carter Burwell (Score)

Drive to Edward's house

      Talk about his home "What did you expect? Coffins, dungeons, and motes?"

      "I told them not to do this"

22 La Traviata The Royal Philharmonic Orchestra (ST - extra)

Esme, Carlisle, Emmett, and Rosalie are cooking italian

23 I Would Be The Meal Carter Burwell (Score)

Alice and Jasper come in through the window

      Tour of the house; Graduation caps

      Walk into Edwards room

      Bella wants to know what he was listening to and turns his radio on

24 Clair de Lune The APM Orchestra (Soundtrack- iTunes extra)

Clair de Lune was playing

Edward starts to dance with Bella

25 Bella's Lullaby Carter Burwell (Score & Soundtrack)

Edward throws Bella on his back and jumps out the window

Climbing through the trees

Edward plays the lullaby (inspired by Bella) for her

26 Nomads or Tracking Carter Burwell (Score)

Cops and dogs searching forest

      DIner; Mike tells Bella Edward looks at her like she is something to eat

      Bella is on the phone with Renee and Edward comes in the window

      "Bella, I just wanna try one thing" - They kiss!

27 The Lion Fell In Love With The Lamb   Carter Burwell (Score)

Bella and Edward talk until she falls asleep

      Bella tells Charlie she has a date with Edward

28 Supermassive Black Hole Muse (Soundtrack)

Baseball game!

29 Nomads Carter Burwell (Score)

Nomads arrive and want to join the game

      "You brought a snack"

      Edward and Bella are in the jeep "I have to go back"

30 Stuck Here Like Mom Carter Burwell (Score)

Bella tells Charlie she is leaving because she doesn't want to be stuck there

like her mother

Bella gets in her truck and drives off

31 Bella Is Part Of This Family Now   Carter Burwell (Score)

Edward hops in the truck too

"He will forgive you"

Laurent warns the Cullens

The Cullen family in the garage packing the cars

32 Tracking Carter Burwell (Score)

Rosaiie, Edward and Emmett are leaving a false trail

Alice and Jasper are driving Bella south to Phoenix

      Alice has a vision of the ballet studio near Bella's house in Phoenix

33 Stuck Here Like Mom Carter Burwell (Score)

"I'll do whatever it takes to make you safe again"

34 In Place Of Someone You Love   Carter Burwell (Score)

Bella's voiceover while in the taxi on the way to the ballet studio

35 Showdown In The Ballet Studio   Carter Burwell (Score)

Bella goes to meet James at the ballet studio

He breaks her leg and Edward comes in crashing him to the floor

James bites Bella

Edward fights James until the others arrive

36 Let Me Sign Robert Pattinson (Soundtrack - iTunes extra)

Edward is sucking the venom out of the wound

Flashbacks of Edward and Bella together

37 Edward At Her Bed Carter Burwell (Score)

Renee talking to Bella in the hospital

Edward tries to convince Bella to go to Jacksonville

      Edward picks Bella up to go to the Prom

38 Go All The Way (Into The Twilight) Perry Farrell (Soundtrack)

Go into the gym and see everyone

39 Flightless Bird, American Mouth    Iron and Wine (Soundtrack)

Bella and Edward dancing in the gazebo

Talk about the future

40 15 Step Radiohead (not included in Score or OST)

Pans away from the gazebo to show Victoria watching them from inside

Credits start

41 Leave Out All The Rest Linkin Park (Soundtrack)

42 Decode Paramore (Soundtrack)

     

     

                     

Tear Jerking Movies

I watched a video on YT today and it made me think of movies that make me cry everytime that I watch them.  There are some that will make me cry the first time I see them, some that make me cry if I am in the crying mood, and some that make me cry every time.  Those are the movies I am putting in this list.

Here are the movies that never fail to leave tears streaks running down my face:

* I will list the reasons at the end that way if you have not seen the movie you can just not read that part.  

The Land Before Time

Forrest Gump

Bridge to Terabithia

The Notebook

I am Legend

P.S. I Love You

Charlotte's Web

Fox and the Hound

Click

Wall-E

Cast Away

All Dogs Go To Heaven

Tarzan

*SPOILERS - Don't read this part if you don't want me to ruin the movies!*

The Land Before Time

I first saw this movie when I was little.  When Little Foot's mom dies protecting him, I sit and sob for the longest time.  It is so sad when he is walking around alone, thinking about her.  And the music makes it so much worse!

Forrest Gump

Whoever may be reading this, seriously, if you don't know why I cry during this movie, there is something wrong with you!  It is SO sad when he is talking to Jenny at the end, especially talking about their son, and how proud Forrest is of little Forrest.

Bridge to Terabithia

When the boy goes on a field trip and leaves the girl alone, she goes into the forest alone and drowns.  You don't see what happens, but when the boy comes back and learns about it, I cried so hard.  I could never imagine losing my best friend.  (In the book, I think the is swinging across the rope and falls and breaks her neck.  I think they changed the story because the movie is intended to be viewed by kids, and was perhaps too violent.)

The Notebook

Again, another one I don't know how you wouldn't know why I cry.  Obviously, I cry at the end when Ally remembers Noah when he goes to lay with her, and they die together.  Makes me want to cry just thinking about it.  :(

I am Legend

Ok, I always cry when an animal dies.  The reason this one makes me list is because it is Will Smith's only friend in the world.

P.S. I Love You

I have never cried so hard during a movie in my life!  I cried several times during the movie, and I cried for a good 10 minutes or more when it was over.  The woman's husband dies of a terminal illness.  Before he died, he planned out a way to help her grieve once he is gone.  She gets a bunch of letters that help her.  I cried for most of the letters, and I cried when he died, and at the end.  The whole movie was one big cry fest.  But it was so so good!

Charlotte's Web (Animated version)

When Charlotte dies, of course!

Fox and the Hound

Never fails to make me cry.  It is when the sad song (I looked it up and it is called 'Goodbye May Seem Forever') is playing, and the old woman is taking Tod into the forest to let him go before the guy next door kills him.  

*I just read the lyrics and it made me cry lol

Click

When his dad dies

Wall-E

I have only seen it once, but when Wall-E took care of Eve, and then when she saw her security camera footage of him taking care of her, I cried.

Cast Away

When he loses Wilson...his best friend

All Dogs Go To Heaven

I haven't seen this in so long, that I don't remember exactly what made me cry, I just know that the main dog goes to heaven and I cried every time I watched it.

Tarzan

When the mom gorilla is singing You'll Be In My Heart

Turtle

A couple of weeks ago my cousin and I decided to get drunk after her and her fiance split up.  We went to her cousin's house (my aunt's side of the family) to drink with her and her husband (Jamie and Joe), her niece and her husband (Jessica and Zak), and their guy friend from back in college (Billy).  A little later, Jamie's step-dad, Mike, showed up.  Joe decided that since his niece (Jess) hadn't become a turtle, it was about time.

Turtle is a drinking game.  I'm starting to think that it is central to Joe's family, because everyone that I have asked about it, has never heard of it before.  The game goes like this.  Everyone sits around a table, with a drink, of course.  The Turtle Master will start be saying a phrase.  Starting clockwise, each person has to take a drink and say the phrase.  

*If they say something after taking their beginning drink, they have to take a 'mistake' drink.  Then they have to take their 'start' drink again, and then say the phrase.  

*If they mess up, they have to take a 'mistake' drink, and another 'start' drink and then say the phrase.  So, you must always take a drink just before saying the phrase, and take a drink if you mess up, or if you say something else.

*During your turn you may request that the person before you say the phrase again.  That means that you take a 'mistake' drink, and then they have to take a 'start' drink to say the phrase.  (If they mess up, they have to abide by mistake rules).  When it comes back to you, you have to take a 'start' drink.

So, basically, you take a drink ever time you are to begin, and if you make a mistake or say something other than the phrase.

Once you are done with the phrase it goes to the next person.  When it makes it all the way around the table, the Turtle Master will add a phrase to the existing phrase, and play continues.

It was very fun playing this, in part because we had already been drinking when we started.  The phrases get really hard in the middle, and when you are drunk and trying to spit them out, you make a lot of mistakes, and often have to have the person before you state them again.

Here they are:

1. One red hen

2. Couple of duck

3. Three brown bear

4. Four running hare

5. Five fat phillies in a field

6. Six sock cutters, cockily cutting sock, I am the sun of a sock cutter.  (yes it says sock, and not socks.  so if someone says                      

        socks...they have to try again!)

7. Seven slippery, slimy seals, sitting on a slippery slab at sea

8. Eight elongated elephants elevated to the eighty-eighth floor

9. Nine nasty Nigerian Nubians navigating the Nile at night

10. Ten talented turtles traveling toward Tennessee by train

What is so hard is that you keep adding, so when you get to 6 for example you have to say the first five, and then say six.  It is increasingly difficult!

Once you have finished with the game...you are now a turtle!  When someone asks you if you are a turtle you have to reply "You bet your sweet ass I am!"  If you are not a turtle, you have to buy the person that asked you a drink.  If you are and don't say the phrase you have to buy that person a drink also...so remember it!

Ask me if I am a Turtle...

Fictional Love

Twilight (The Twilight Saga, Book 1)

Stephenie Meyer

Pride and Prejudice: Music from the Motion Picture Soundtrack

The Host: A Novel

Stephenie Meyer

Have you ever fallen in love with a fictional character from a novel, or even from a movie?  I have four loves.  These are people that I think about on a daily basis, even though they exist only in pages, (and some on screen as well) and in my thoughts.  I think it a crime to write such a character that it is impossible to fall in love with them, because it leaves me aching for these men that I can never possibly have but in my dreams.

The books above are ones that I have read multiple times, with the exception of The Host.  I just finished it for the first time last night.  There are four Twilight books (I included only the first up top), and I have read them all twice; Pride and Prejudice I don't know how many times I have read it, seen the movies, and read other books written from other characters persectives, etc.  

When I finished The Host last night, I wanted to cry.  It's like I am forlorn once I have completed them.  I literally wish that they could go on forever.  If there is no sequel being written for The Host, I will be upset.  I am already addicted to it.

So, who are the characters that I am in love with?  Ones that I am sure you are tired of hearing the names of.  I will tell you who, but I will leave it to you to read and find out why.

Ian O'Shea - The Host

Fitzwilliam Darcy - Pride and Prejudice

Jacob Black - Twilight Saga

Edward Cullen - Twilight Saga

Christian Gallagher - Change of Heart

Jasper Hale - Twilight  I love this line he tells Bella.  I won't ever forget it.  When he doesn't understand why everyone is helping her, Jasper can feel it and he tells "You are enough."  I love that line :D

My Obsession

It's his obsession.  He's never gonna stop.

My Twilight Fixation

Everyone has at least one major obsession in their lives.  My obsession is not The Backstreet Boys or N'SYNC.  It is not Pokemon or Care Bears, Myspace or Facebook, not even Harry Potter.  My obsession is Twilight.

I first heard about Twilight when I was watching a YouTube video.  One the 5AwesomeGays mentioned it and asked the others if they were reading it.  That peaked my interest.  So, I decided I would buy them the next time I went to the bookstore.  

A couple of days later, I went to the local Regal Cinemas to see Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist with a friend, and they had the questionnaire booths at the front.  I told the guy I would do it.  The list of actors/actresses were people I didn't recognize.  Usually, when you answer that you don't know who it is, then the movie that they will be in is the one you get to see a preview of.  I got to see the preview for Twilight.  

As soon as I left the movie theater and took Denise home, I went to the store and bought the first two books.  I didn't know how long it would take me to read them, and they were the only two of the four in the saga that came in paperback.  I figured I would just buy them as I went.  

I started reading Twilight a couple days later.  I think it was Thursday, after midnight sometime.  I read until 4:30am and decided I should probably go to bed because I had to get up 8:30am.  As soon as I got out of class, I came home and finished reading the 498 page book.  That night, I went to Walmart and bought the hardback copies of Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, the final two books in the saga.  I knew that it wouldn't take me long to get through New Moon, and I wanted to have the next book on hand when I did.

On Saturday, I started reading New Moon, which is the second book in the saga.  That weekend I was helping my cousin put polyurethane on her hardwood floors, and you have to wait so many hours in between layers, so I took it with me.  I read from around 6ish in the evening until 7am during the breaks I had when I wasn't working on the house.  Even when the break was only five minutes long, I was reading.  I was about 60 pages away from finishing the 563 page book, when I finally passed out.  I woke up Sunday and finished it before moving on to Eclipse.

Because I helped work on the house on Sunday too, I didn't get to read after that.  

On Monday, I found a partial draft of Midnight Sun on Stephenie Meyer's website.  Midnight Sun is Twilight written from Edward's perspective instead of Bella's.  It has been leaked online, and Stephenie posted it on her website so that people wouldn't be trying to obtain it illegally.  It was the first 12 chapters.  So, on Monday, in between my Poly Sci and French class, I read the draft.  It was amazing, and I really hope that she decides to finish writing it.

Tuesday I started Eclipse.  I had a French test Wednesday, and 2 tests on Thursday, so I didn't get to read a lot, but I finished it Thursday after school.  

Friday I started reading Breaking Dawn.  Again, because I was helping my cousin with her house on the weekends, I didn't get to finish it until Sunday.  

With reading all four books and the draft online, I read over 2700 pages in 9 days!  That didn't include the countless interviews and articles I read online, or anything I had read for school.

Now, here I am 3-4 weeks later, and only 10 days from the movie!  I have seen all the trailers, teasers, tv spots, interviews, and even movies that the no name stars had been in before this one.  I have two t-shirts, two copies of the soundtrack, four posters, a keychain, the movie companion, and not one, but five copies of Twilight, as well as New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn.  I have two tickets to see the midnight showing!  I also have 19 pins with quotes, pictures, or taglines that fans have come up with, which I have stuck on my purse/school bag.  They range from "Stupid Shiny Volvo Owner" and "Stupid Lamb" to "Jacob Black Because Every Girl Needs A Space Heater."  Of course, I also have ones that say like Team Jacob (I would have Team Edward too, but they were out!), Be Safe,  O.C.D. Obsessive Cullen Disorder, and I'm Betting On Alice.  My favorite reads this:  All I want is a shiny silver volvo owning vampire boyfriend who composes me lullabies and sparkles in the sun.  Is that so much to ask for?  

This week, I have reread Twilight, New Moon, and I am about 130 pages into Eclipse.  I am reading slower now that I have already read them though.

My family and friends keep making fun of me!  They have no idea though, because they haven't read it!  

This weekend I told my friend about it, and though skeptical, she borrowed it.  She sat down to read it and nearly didn't put it down until it was finished.  She really liked it, and now is quoting it too!  I couldn't be happier.  My aunt and cousin know the friend that read it, and when I told them that she had been a little wary of it, and then really liked it, my aunt was like "I will have to read it and see what is so great about it."  My mom and grandma had already told me that they might want to read it too.

I went to Walmart that night with my cousin while she was shopping for her new house, and bought 3 new copies of Twilight.  I had already owned 2.  I had the first one with the apple on it.  But have read it twice and the corners and stuff are bending and it looks worn :(  So i bought a small copy for $5 that I could cart around and ruin instead of the one with the apple.  Besides, now that the movie has so much hype, all the copies of Twilight have the cast on them now instead of the apple.  I am so glad I got that copy when I did because it is quickly becoming obsolete.  

I loaned the small one to my friend.  I got 3 new ones, one each for my aunt, mom and grandma.  I kinda snuck it so they wouldn't see me buying them.  They already knew I had 2 copies, and they would have protested my buying 3 more.  :)  When I went to leave for home, I yelled through the door, "I left something in your coat pocket!"  

The next day when I went over, I asked my aunt about it.  She said that she looked in her pocket and yelled out to my cousin "She left her copy of Twilight here!," and that Candice looked over and said "no, mom.  Her copy is with Mars."  That's when the realized that I had bought it for them to read. 

The first thing my cousin said to me was "I am at the part where Edward tries to get her to go to Seattle with him."  I almost started screaming!  She is the one that has criticized me the most through all of this.  She told me a couple months back that she has never read an entire book in her entire life, and she is 25!  I read all the time.  I was shocked to learn that she had read 84 pages of a book!  And to top it off it was Twilight!  She read it because she knew that I loved it, and she had to see what I was so crazy about.  I started looking around for it, and asked her where she left it.  She has left it at my aunt's house because she had a lot of work to get done, and she said she would have kept reading and not gotten anything done.  That made me so proud to hear!  I was so excited.

Wow, I just realized that I didn't say anything about the characters, or anything.  I could go on for days! 

I really can't believe that I just wrote that much about Twilight.  Actually, yes I can.  If I had more time, which I will after exams next week, I would probably post chapter summaries online somewhere.  I might do that, especially since I know that I will be rereading them again once I am done with this.  

After reading through them the first time, I read another 300 page book.  Then I started rereading Ender's Game and another book, but I couldn't get into them because I just wanted to reread Twilight again!  So I did.  I hope that I will be able to read other books now.  

As one of my very true pins states:  I was normal.  Then I read Twilight.

*UPDATE* - November 26, 2008 12:24 a.m.

Yes, this is another Twilight blog.

I am not sure what I can say that I didn't say the in the last blog, besides my comments on the movie, and the new merchandise I purchased.

I have added quite a few items to my Twilight inventory.  I now have 3 shirts, 23 buttons/pins, a bag with the Cullens and Bella on one side and the Cullen Crest on the other, 4 more posters, the unofficial guide, the movie companion, 4 magazines with various Twilight/cast articles, and more copies of the books.

My victims:

Book:  Grandma, Candice, mom, John, Mars, Chelsea

Movie:  Aunt, John, Candice, Mars, Kevin, Rob, Jennifer

I have gotten several people in my family and some friends to read the books.  It makes me so happy to have someone to talk to about the books now because after I read them, I didn't know anyone else that had.

I loved the movie.  I have seen it 4 times already.  Today is Tuesday, and the movie came out this past Friday.  I went to the midnight showing Thursday, then again at midnight on Friday and Saturday.  I didn't go on Sunday, but I did go yesterday.  I didn't just go to see it over and over simply because I wanted to.  I went over and over because I had promised so many people that I would see the movie with them, and none of them could go all at the same time.  The first night, I had tickets that I had purchased a month proir.  Friday, I went with my aunt, cousin, and Mars, Tina, and John.  The third night It was all the same people from Friday apart from Tina, plus Rob, Kevin and Jennifer went.  Then on Monday I went with Chelsea.  

Each of my books has been borrowed by several people.  Right now, both of my copies of New Moon are on loan; mom has one of them, and Chelsea has the other.  My cousin is in the middle of Breaking Dawn, as am I.  Mars is about to start Eclipse, finally.  She would have earlier, but her and my cousin both finished New Moon at the same time, and my cousin practically forced me to give her Eclipse first lol.  John and my grandma are still on Twilight, but are reading none-the-less.  

I don't really have anything else to say about it right now.  Just felt like typing something, and lately Twilight is all that is on my mind, so it is what i typed about.

My Life (Poem)

It's ordinary.

Sometimes hectic.

Sometimes energetic.

Sometimes boring.

It's exciting.

Sometimes disappointing.

It's important.

Sometimes frivolous.

It can be a lot of fun.

It can also be slow.

Sometimes it is stimulating.

At times it can be tragic.

Sometimes fabulous.

Sometimes no good.

But it always rocks!

It's my life.

To you

Back and forth through my head

you make an impression on me

when i listen to you

i believe all the things you tell me

because they are great thing, honest things

things a girl would want to hear, love to hear

it's hard to find fault in you

should I trust my heart and believe the things you tell me?

you make it so easy

this great thing in front of me

you make me feel worthy and needed

not everyone makes me feel this way

when I need someone to talk to i have you to call

i can talk to you about anything

i believe in you ____, and I have faith that you will one day accomplish the goals you set for yourself

your life may not get easier, but it will get better

not all people will trust you

not all people will give you the benefit of the doubt

i did

i am here for you, no matter what anyone might say

i want you to be the guy i can come to for anything

and i want to be that girl

July is the worst month ever. I just need a good cry.

I was very excited for this month to start.  I turned 20 on July 6th, so I thought that this month would be great.  There were so many things that happened this month it was ridiculous. 

A couple of days before my birthday, my grandpa was rushed to the hospital because he couldn't breathe.  While he was in the hospital, they found a spot on his lung.  Which I have come to find out that he has known about it for a yeah and never told anyone but my grandma.  

When I went out to dinner with my mom for my birthday (about a week after the actual day) I went to the drive-ins later.  While I was there, my ignition went out and I had to have my car towed and then I payed a locksmith $321 the next day to put a new ignition in it.  A week later, I got a flat and had to have that fixed.  Mind you I had just payed a credit card off.  Now I have all these new expenses on it.  This just really sucks. 

There is more though.  About a week ago, my aunt's niece on her side of the family came and stayed at her house and brought her dogs with her.  Well, she has a Golden Retriever named Grace...who is the most ungraceful dog I have seen in my entire life.  When she drinks out of the water bowl, she digs in it like it is mud or something.  I walked into the dark kitchen and slipped on the huge puddle she had left on the floor.  I fell hard on my right knee.  It wouldn't have been so bad if I hadn't done the same thing at Kroger two years earlier.  When that happened, I had gone to Kroger around 1am and they were using the floor cleaner.  They didn't have anyone mopping and the machine didn't have a mop thing to pick up the water on the back of it.  There were no wet floor signs and so I slipped and really messed my knee up good.  Since then I have had trouble with it.  Probably goes back longer than that actually because I had dislocated it a couple years prior to that.  Anyway, today and Meijer, my roommate and I were shopping and walked past the plants.  They had watered them and it leaked into the main isle.  I slipped and landed on the same knee.  It was already swollen all to hell and the bruise from last week is about the size of a small apple.  Well, it wasn't hurting before.  It was just numb when I touched it and I couldn't put any type pf pressure on it.  NOW it hurts like hell!  It hurts to walk, and bend and unbend my knee.  I can't touch it at all and it throbs.

So now, I might possible need to get it checked out.  Which is something that I should have done 2 years ago when I hurt it the first time.

Money because of all of this sucks too.  It put me back so far, and I am already down for August too because of it.

Lastly, there is a guy problem.  I met someone through my roommate about 2 months ago.  I had just met him once.  He needed someone to talk to, and my roommate didn't want to talk to him bc of her fiance so he asked if he could call me and talk about it.  So he did.  Well, I didn't hear from him again for another 3 weeks maybe.  Then he texted me out of the blue and needed to talk.  Well, after a week or so of hearing from him every once in a while, he started calling me a lot.  He would call and talk to me for hours.  He called almost every single day for 2 weeks.  We talked about everything.  He wanted to hang out and I agreed, but for whatever reason, it just didn't happen.  He even wanted to come see me at work.  Well, then I didn't hear from him for 3 days.  So, I texted asking about his job search, and he only texted me back.  Usually If I were to text, he would call and talk about it.  But he didn't call, which I thought was weird.  Then he called today and asked what year my car was.  He was with a friend and her car did the same thing as mine where the ignition went out.  So, I told him I would find the number of the guy who fixed mine and call him back.  When I called back I could hear his friend in the background and I heard her say very clearly "my boyfriend is on the phone with a friend bc the same thing happened to her car."  I was crushed.   I am really going to miss talking to him too.

I can only figure that he was talking to her the same time as he was talking to me and for some reason it worked out and happened quicker.  This has happened before.  I was kinda dating this guy for almost 2 months.  I didn't really know if we were dating or not, and then one night he said something about taking me where he did for the first date.  I looked at him and said "date?" and he smiled real big and never did say anything else about it.  Then he met a girl 2 days later, and now they are engaged. 

I just want to cry so badly right now.  Every chance that I could possibly have had to be with someone gets messed up by something ridiculous.  I am really quite tired of it all, and I don't think that I can take anymore heartache.  It is killing me.  I have been on the verge of tears all day, and I am about to finally let them flow. 

I am gonna go lay down now and have a good cry.  Besides, I think I am past due for one.

Disney

I left off and wanted to talk about the Disney Internship.  A couple of weeks before Andy asked me to move in, I went to a meeting at school and signed up to be a Disney intern.  You basically sign up for a telephone interview.  The woman called and talked to me a couple of days later and told me I would hear something soon. 

Andy is in the Air Force and applied for a job a few hours away.  He was almost guaranteed the job, but then for some reason it fell through.  While he was waiting to find out about the job, he told me that he might be moving.  He said that if he didn't move, he wanted to know if I would move in and be roomie.  I said sure thinking that he would be moving.  Well, it didn't work out so well and he asked me to move in.  I moved in on May 1st.  I drove to the apartment to get some more of my things and I checked the mail.  I had a large envelope from Disney.  I was accepted into the program.  I immediately felt bittersweet about the whole thing.  It was something that I had wanted so bad, and then I didn't know what I wanted.  It took me the entire respond time to finally decline the invitation.   There were too many reasons not to go.  I think all of my friends and family besides my cousin and my aunt wanted me to go.  They didn't see what the big deal was, and they didn't understand that having Disney on your resume will almost guarantee you a job wherever you apply.  I didn't go because I would have been gone for Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years.  Not to mention several birthdays in my family, and most of my friends birthdays too.  It would have put me a year behind in my language at school also, and I didn't need that.  Plus, I had just moved in with my friends.

Timing sucks...real bad.  

After moving in, I had the chance to get to know Jordan better.  I had only hung out with her maybe 5 or 6 times prior to moving in, and it was only with Andy that I had hung out with her.  For the first two weeks I was there, Rob was in Arizona with the Air Force.  While he was there he broke his collar bone, first rib and shoulder.  A week after he got home, Andy had to go there.  He was gone for two weeks.  I got close to Jordan in those two weeks.  The day after Andy came home he proposed to her, and she asked me to be her maid of honor.  I don't get her though.  We hung out all the time, and since Andy has been back, I have talked to her maybe two times in the past 2 weeks.  I swear her whole life centers around that boy, and all I ever hear about is wedding plans anymore.  Oh well, guess I better get used to it.

Going into this I thought it would be cool to be living with friends, but I hardly do anything with Andy or Jordan.  Instead I have started hanging out with Rob because we both live upstairs.  When Jordan cooks, she doesn't offer us any the way we do her.  So Rob and I have sorta teamed together in the sense that when we go somewhere (dinner, shopping, etc) we ask the other if there is anything that they need.  Jordan and Andy don't do that.  Ok, not true.  Andy does sometimes, Jordan doesn't.  The only time she asks me anymore is if Andy is working and she doesn't want to go out to eat alone.

Ok, I need to end this roommate rant.  I could go on for hours and I think it is already getting long enough.

So in short a lot has happened since January.

Moved, turned down a job working at Disney World, passed my classes with A's and B's, I have decided to switch majors again, my aunt's dog died for like 2 minutes and then came back to life...and then the swinging chair fell down and broke her foot like 10 minutes later, Lacey moved to North Dakota, I have practically been living at my aunt's, my grandpa got rushed to the hospital today, i paid off a credit card...twice...because my phone decided to keel over, and im sure that there is more I just don't know what it is yet :)

Life since March '08

It has been a while!  There is a lot to tell, I guess.  I think I kinda left off near the middle of winter quarter.  Here it is the middle of the summer and I'm back!  I think I mentioned before that I needed to write these more often, and I am finally realizing that the reason I do, is because it gives me some time for myself.  Lately I am always working or out doing something.  I hardly ever stay at home anymore.  This summer seems hectic, yet slowed down.  For the first time in my life I am busy is seems.  I'm still getting used to it.  

I left off during winter quarter when I had a psych project due.  I believe that it was the project where I had to present information in front of a large group of people.  Well, it went well.  So glad to have it over and done with.  

I probably haven't written enough blogs on here to have mentioned that I am very close to my aunt and cousin.  So close in fact that I know her entire family and go to her family reunions.  Doesn't bother me a bit.  I love having everyone around, especially since my own family is so small.  Well, her nephew was having some family problems and committed suicide mid-march.  It devastated the family.  I was with my cousin the night his sisters called and said that he was missing.  They found him in a parking lot the next day right before I walked into the above mentioned psych class where the topic of the day was suicide.  I missed a couple classes due to the funeral and the special service his close family.

 I still hear a lot about him now.  His sister Jamie and my aunt were very close for a long time and a couple years ago they fell out.  I never did find out why, but my aunt didn't talk to her anymore and avoided her.  When Jimmy killed himself, the only person that could talk to Jamie (and to stop her from doing it herself) was my aunt.  I am so happy that they are talking now.  I have other reasons for that though.  Jamie knew my dad.  The year before my aunt and her stopped talking I was at her house on New Years and she told me all kinds of stories about him.  For these past couple of years, I haven't heard any.

I just hope that they can completely reconcile their differences, and not come together just because of Jimmy's death.  I want them to have each other again...and I want to hear stories about my dad too.

Now, to school for a minute.  That quarter, I had 2 A's, a B, and a C.  It was ok.  Not my favorite classes, and not the grades I strive for, but it was actually one of the hardest quarters I have ever had.  

This past quarter I dropped one of the classes I had during the third week because I found out I was the only person taking it that wasn't a Criminal Justice major.  I found myself reading things in the book over and over and not understanding any of it.  I didn't know what they were talking about in class.  I was lost, and so confused.  The reason I was so lost was because everyone but me knew the subject because they had taken classes before that covered the subject.  BUT, I liked the other 3 classes I had.  I took level 3 ASL (American Sign Language), Biology of Disease, and History of America up until 1877.  I got an A in ASL despite having completely skipped out on a 100 point paper that had to be about our experience at a deaf culture event (which I didn't attend..shhh).  My biology class was fun.  I love the subject, so it was very easy for me.  The professor taught about the parts of the body and how they worked, and then used that information to explain several diseases about that part of the body, or the specific organ.  There was so many chapters.  But I had A's on all 4 tests.  I had an A in the lab, and I got 50 of 50 on all he homework assignments.  Lastly, there was History.  I really enjoyed that class.  There were two papers due in the class.  For the first, we had to choose a chapter in the book and put ourselves in that time period.  We had to do a journal, or an editorial, or a series of letter, etc.  They had to be detailed as possible.  Well, out of 60 people, only 7 of us received A's.  She made those of us that got an A stand up, she gave them books, and made everyone clap for them.  I got an A, but I would much rather have let everyone think that I got a C than have them all clap for me.    Then there was the midterm.  There were 10 essays and for the midterm, she chose 4 of them and we had to write about 2 of the 4.  I didn't study because I was too busy moving.  That was a bad idea.  I ended up with a 66, and that sucked.  Then the second paper...which I freaked about, I also received an A on.  I busted my ass studying for the final.  I had to study 16 essays for it.  I must have dont well, because I ended up with a B for the class.  Two A's and a B..not bad!

I moved.  Yep.  In with my friend Andy, his girlfriend Jordan, and his brother Rob (who owns the house).  I love it here.  I am not having to constantly take care of my mom and brother.  Although, I still do kinda.  I miss my dogs <3

I will write more here a little while.  Right now I have to eat and I am headed to my aunt's house.  Don't let me forget to tell you about the Disney internship stuff!

Not Enough Time in the Day

I definitely need to write a blog. It helps relieve stress. I got on aim to talk to Mars, but she wasn't on, its after 10 so i can't call Sam, MArs didn't answer her text which means she probably has passed out by now, and I don't want to write to D bc he has enough to worry about and doesn't need to listen to me complain.

Anyway, Wednesday evening i found out the people that are in my group for this psychology presentation that we are doing tomorrow. It has to be 30 minutes long. This is my 5th quarter in college, and this will be the first time I have had to get up and speak in front of someone, aside from sign language...but that is so different. To be truthful, I'm not even nervous about that part. I am nervous the fact that I haven't had adequate time to prepare, and I haven't been able to find substantial material on my topic. The topic is Gender in Social Situations, and my specific subtopic is School. I am ready to rip my head off right now.

Apart from that presentation being tomorrow, I have a test tomorrow morning, and a paper due Thursday. I forgot about the test until Wednesday, and I got the art paper requirements on Tuesday. The problem with my paper was that I had to go to the Dayton Art Institute and write about some of the pieces there. The DAI is only open from 10a-4p. I can't go at all Mon-Thur because of school, and I worked early Friday, and worked 10-4 Saturday and 12-6 today. Well, I would have been able to go tomorrow in between classes, but they are closed on Monday of all days. So I had to switch with someone so that I could work Sat night and have the morning to go. So at least I got that done.

I was supposed to get off at 8 Sat, but one of the girls did a no call, no show so I had to stay until 9:30, and then she was supposed to work today and didn't show, so I had to stay an extra two hours. I was going to use that time to work on the psych presentation. Plus since Friday I have had a stye or something, and my eye has been about half way open. I rubbed it so much that it was puffy and red, and my eye lid (top and bottom) were about twice the normal size. It looked terrible. I couldn't put any makeup on besides mascara. I kind of like it like that though. I have been trying to make myself more comfortable with less makeup on.

I just felt like every thing that could go wrong this weekend did. The psych project is supposed to be a power point, and i can't get it to open on my computer. I tried to open it through word and it worked, but then once i saved, i couldn't reopen it, so that sucked. I had to email the girl in my group at like 9 this evening to tell her that i couldn't get it to her and that i would have to do mine separately. I didn't want to disappoint them though. Especially since im like one of the only sophomores in the class. All of them group members are senior and most are psych majors, so they know their shit. I feel stupid. Im worried that what I have to contribute won't be good enough, and it won't be substantial and worthwhile.

I burst out crying in the car today on the way home. School and work, especially when school calls for a TON of outside work is taking is toll on me, and i just couldn't hold it in anymore. Plus, I think I was way overdue for a tearfest.

Well, back to the psych project. I don't want to look like a fool in front of 60 psych majors tomorrow night.

QotD: Cards & Letters

What do you do with the cards and letters you receive?  Do you keep them all, just keep the photos, throw them away? 
Inspired by jacolily.

I always keep the cards and photos that i get.  in fact, I usually tack them up on my wall.  I did it with graduation cards, birthday cards, Christmas cards, etc.  cards mean a lot to me, and so i like to keep them.  thats really all i have to say about it at the moment though...

Should I Stay Or Should I Go?

I am in a little bit of a predicament.  So I was thinking really hard today about something, and I probably shouldnt have been, but I couldn't help myself.  There is a Youtube gathering in LA on Saturday the 19th.  I really, really want to go.  I'm not even completely sure why I want to go this bad, but I really do.  

I have left-over money from my scholarships this quarter, and I went online to find the closest airport to where the gathering is, which is LAX.  I looked up a flight from Dayton to LAX and it is just over $400!!!  I have enough money to go, it is just that i would be leaving Friday, and coming back on Sunday.  I have no hotel arrangements.  I think there is only one person I talk to that lives there, and there is no way I could possibly impose upon him, especially since I have never even met him before.  Not to mention that fact that this would be less than a weeks notice.  

Tonight while I was preparing for inventory with my boss, I asked her if I should stay or if I should go.  She told me that it was really my decision, and that I should just let her know before Wednesday when she makes the schedule, that way she could give me Sunday off.  She told me that i should ask another co-worker to go, which would be a good idea, but I don't know if she could or not.

There are fears to go with this of course.  Should I spend this money and do something so spur of the moment and once in lifetime?  If i dont have someone to stay with, where am I going to stay, and will I be able to afford that along with the ticket?  Im worried bc the cell phone service I have is Cricket, and doesn't work everywhere.  What happens if I can't call home, what happens if i need a phone and don't have one?  What happens if I get lost?  What happens if I can't make it back to the airport?  there are so many things to be answered and I have no clue what to do.  

This is something I really want to do, and am so unprepared for.  I don't want to go alone, but i don't have money enough for two, and I don't know anyone who would be able to pay for it that would actually go.

I ran it by my mom, and at first she was like you are not going alone.  LA is dangerous.  I prompted that I might be able to go to the gathering with someone I knew from youtube, and that i had the money.  I told her it was something that I really want to do.  I think that i got a little more comfortable with the idea, now she is just worried about me spending so much money on it, well that and the fact that she would be worried to death the entire time i would be gone.  we only got to talk for like 5 minutes though, i waited to ask until she was on her way out for the evening.  

really, i just want opinions.  so if anyone at all reads this, please send some my way.  you have until tuesday night!

QotD: I'm So Grateful

What are you most grateful for in your life right now?
Submitted by Becca-Pink.

There are many things that i am grateful for right now im my life.  But with school and work and having little time for friends, I have become very dependant on the internet.  My schedule is so crazy, and by the time I get home I have little time to go anywhere because everyone else has to go to bed shortly after.  

So, the internet has become my release so to speak.  Well, more specifically Youtube.  I started making videos and uploading them to youtube using the name {}. 

 I have met some people through youtube that I talk to quit frequently.  Some directly and indirectly.  For example, I have a "pen pal" from Russia now from when I watched a featured video.  I commented on a few videos and we started talking over windows messenger.  That was someone i met directly through Youtube. 

When i joined youtube a long time ago, the first person that I subscribed to was (i'll leave it blank).  Over time i added him on myspace, and when he goes live on Stickam he posts bulletins.  Well, i decided to go into his stickam room.  there were a few people in there, and after he left, he left the room open.  The person left in there helped me figure out stickam and now we also talk a lot.

I am grateful for youtube, and i am grateful for the people that I have met.  i have actually learned a lot from them, whether it be about the russian language, and french music :) or about acting and just life in general.  There are others, but these two people are the people that i converse with regularly.  

I consider both of them to be good friends at this point.  Our topics of conversation are quite different, and it is stimulating to have such varied interests.  With one I talk about music, languages, school.  The other about more in depth, private and personable topics.

Ok, i think i will end this here.  I promised my brother i would take him to Subway before I have to go to work.

QotD: Five Good Words

What are five words you really like? 
Submitted by purplesque.

The favorite words that I can think off right away are smirbeer and beernoff (count as 1), helmet!, sweetness, biotch, and my most recent favorite that my friend created is Daileville.  Smirbeer and beernoff were coined on New Years Eve of 2006, when I didn't know what I was talking about.  Helmet is something that is often said to me, and sweetness is something that I have caught myself saying a lot lately.  My cousin and I often refer to eachother ass biotch when we want to tease each other.  Daile is my middle name, and my friend just said Daileville one day, and I like it.  I will go ahead and tell you what my least favorite word is too...c***.  I won't type it because I don't like the way it looks, and I don't like the say it sounds, and I myself NEVER say it.  I loathe the word.

QotD: I'll Do Things Differently

How do you want 2008 to be different from 2007? What will you change or do differently? 
Submitted by Becca-Pink.

There are a lot of things that I want 2008 to be.  Different is definately one of them.  I want 2008 to be life changing.  I want things to happen!  For one, I would like to pick a major and stick to it.  I have never had this much trouble making a decision in my life.  I hate that I am indecisive about this.  Not being able to make up your mind and know what you want is a major turn off.  The thing with this is, it is a decision that I will have to live with my whole life, unless I go back to school somewhere on down the line.  So that is one thing. 

Two, I would like to get a job that I like better.  I love the people that I work with, but there are so few of us, that when someone calls off, I have to go in.  It wouldn't be so bad if they didn't do it to me almost everyday, and I hate inventory too because I was supposed to go to Columbus with my cousin for the weekend and Monday, and I can't because on Sunday we are doing inventory.  Ok, so that had nothing to do with what I want in 2008.

I will read more for school!  Or at least try, because I don't do the reading that I should, even though I spend a fortune on my books.  Today I spent $101 on a small book for a Psych class that I have to take, and I already have a group project due in that class in 2 weeks.  Today was the first day, I don't know anyone yet, and it is a little intimidating that over 3/4 of the class are seniors, and I am a sophomore.  Ok, ranting again.  I have trouble staying on topic, I should work on that too for the new year.

Off for now, watching the OSU vs LSU game.  OSU rules!  GO BUCKS!!!!!

so i found this poem...

I found this poem in an old journal of mine.  Im not sure when I wrote it.  A little depressing..i think.  

Selfish

I want to be the one you hold

The one to cuddle with when I'm cold

I want to smile and laugh with you

No one can do it the way you do.

Sometimes I wish you two were through

because that would mean I could get closer to you

I wish you could love me

The way the I love you.

I have some older poems from this creative writing class I was in during high school.  When I find them I might stick some on here if this one is well received by whoever sees it.

QotD: Good Cheap Fun

What do you do for fun when you're broke? 
Submitted by Kim. 

This one is easy for me!  There are a few things I do when I am broke...which is most of the time, lol.  What I do depends on who I am with, and what they want to do.

There is one friend that is usually always bored when I am, so we go walk around at Meijer and play with the toy guns and lightsabers!  Sometimes we hang out with my brother and play Guitar Hero.  I am gradually getting better!

A lot of the time I go to my cousin's.  It is my second home.  The only problem with that is, they always want to go out to eat or order in.  So, I try and save some money for that purpose, or I make myself something.  They stopped paying for me a long time ago..lol.  

Then there is most of the time.  When my mom is at work (2nd shift), and my brother is playing his video games, I am online.  I have turned into an internet addict.  I open up Safari, and then 6 tabs.  From left to right I click on my bookmarks:  Facebook, Myspace, Tumblr, Youtube, Stickam, and Vox.  I have turned into a social networking freak!  I LOVE IT!  I check them all, but I spend all my time on Youtube.  

I am constantly checking for comments and messages, because I LOVE them! *hint* *hint*

I also like responding, and over the past couple weeks I have doubled the subscriptions I have.  I can't get enough.  I am hooked.

Before college I used to scrapbook all the time, I havent done it in 2 years.  I need to though.  I have so much stuff for it that it is rediculous.

Lastly, I always listen to music.  Currently, I am in love with the song Meme si by Gregory Lemarchal and Lucie Silvas.  I think I posted it on here, so go check it out!

Schedule!

Schedule!

Im seriously about to have a bitch fit.  School starts back up on Monday, and my schedule is going to be crazy.  I guess I will show you what it looks like.

Mon, Wed-

10:25-12:05  RHB 102

6:05-7:45  PSY 210

Tues, Thr

2:15-3:55  PSY 351

4:10-5:50  ART 214

I am hating the fact that I have such a large span of time in between classes on Monday and Wednesday.  I told my boss in hopes that she would schedule me from 1 to 5.  

For one, we need people in the early afternoon because most of us are college students.  Two, I don't want to be working every day that Im not in school.  Third, I am givin 4 hour shifts frequently, and that is the prefect gap for me to come to work during.  Besides, my work is about a minute from school, whereas I live about 15 minutes away from them both.  I would much rather not have to drive back and forth.  I guess that I am going to have to find something to do for the 6 hours in between, because I can't afford to drive to school, back home, to school again, and then back home again.  There is no way.  The city that I am in doesnt have public transportation either (which i have a pretty good idea as to why we don't), so that limits my options.

Any suggestions??

The thing that upset me was that went I went to work today, the schedule for next week was posted.  I am working Sunday...which is this upcoming Sunday.being Jan. 6th, and I am working Saturday the 12th.  That really sucks.  Now Im going to be completely bored for 6 hours on Mon and Wed, and I dont work friday either.  She only gave me 9 hours, whereas Im used to getting between 22 and 28ish.

Im tired of being bitchy and pessimistic, so im done with this blog for now.

QotD: (Not) Far From Home

How far from your last home do you live? Why did you move and are you glad you did? 
Submitted by Matthew 25.

I live about 5 minutes from where I used to live.  My mom, brother and I were forced to move in with my grandparents when I was in the seventh grade because of some things that happened at home with my step dad. 

I lived with my grandparents until I was 17.  Right after winter break during my senior year of high school, my brother got off of the bus crying.  At the time he was in the 8th grade.  It was a Wednesday.  He told us that they called him down to the office and told him that he wouldn't be allowed to come back to school after Friday.  

What was so upsetting was that he is such a good student.  Im not exaggerating because he is my brother.  Right now he is a sophomore and all of his core classes are honors.  He is ahead of where I was when I was in high school.  He is in a couple of the classes i had as a junior, so that tells you something about his school ethic and how well he does. 

Anyway, we were still using our address for a while, then we used my aunt's address.  They found out we were living outside of the school district and so they kicked him out.  They didn't kick me out because it was the middle of my senior year.  The thing that was so horrible about it was the fact that he was such a good student, and my grandma lived like 3 blocks from the district lines.

My mom called the school to make an inquiry as to why they only gave us 2 days warning.  They claimed that they called my aunts and talked to her, and that they called my grandma and talked to her, when in fact they hadn't talked to either of them.  They also said that they sent letters to both addresses, and they didn't.

So he was out of school for two weeks.  We found an apartment in the district, because the one he would have went to is a very poor school system, and he wouldn't have been challenged at the slightest degree.  

I was glad at first.  I finally had my own room, and I loved it.  I had more freedoms.  Now, that we have been here two years, I hate it.  I have no money.  I pay all the bills, and the rent.  I have too much responsibility for me to handle.  My mom and brother depend on me too much.  I can't even leave for an hour and they are calling because they need me for something.  I can't tell you on the things I have had to call off or miss because of them.  i have no money now.  Before, I was able to save some.  Now that I am paying all the bills and buying all the gorceries, I am unable to save a dime.  I think I have $6.50 in my saving right now.  There is some in the checking, but I have to go to the grocery store, and it has to last for the rest of this month.

So, that's really all I have to say about the subject for the time being.