I was very excited for this month to start. I turned 20 on July 6th, so I thought that this month would be great. There were so many things that happened this month it was ridiculous.
A couple of days before my birthday, my grandpa was rushed to the hospital because he couldn't breathe. While he was in the hospital, they found a spot on his lung. Which I have come to find out that he has known about it for a yeah and never told anyone but my grandma.
When I went out to dinner with my mom for my birthday (about a week after the actual day) I went to the drive-ins later. While I was there, my ignition went out and I had to have my car towed and then I payed a locksmith $321 the next day to put a new ignition in it. A week later, I got a flat and had to have that fixed. Mind you I had just payed a credit card off. Now I have all these new expenses on it. This just really sucks.
There is more though. About a week ago, my aunt's niece on her side of the family came and stayed at her house and brought her dogs with her. Well, she has a Golden Retriever named Grace...who is the most ungraceful dog I have seen in my entire life. When she drinks out of the water bowl, she digs in it like it is mud or something. I walked into the dark kitchen and slipped on the huge puddle she had left on the floor. I fell hard on my right knee. It wouldn't have been so bad if I hadn't done the same thing at Kroger two years earlier. When that happened, I had gone to Kroger around 1am and they were using the floor cleaner. They didn't have anyone mopping and the machine didn't have a mop thing to pick up the water on the back of it. There were no wet floor signs and so I slipped and really messed my knee up good. Since then I have had trouble with it. Probably goes back longer than that actually because I had dislocated it a couple years prior to that. Anyway, today and Meijer, my roommate and I were shopping and walked past the plants. They had watered them and it leaked into the main isle. I slipped and landed on the same knee. It was already swollen all to hell and the bruise from last week is about the size of a small apple. Well, it wasn't hurting before. It was just numb when I touched it and I couldn't put any type pf pressure on it. NOW it hurts like hell! It hurts to walk, and bend and unbend my knee. I can't touch it at all and it throbs.
So now, I might possible need to get it checked out. Which is something that I should have done 2 years ago when I hurt it the first time.
Money because of all of this sucks too. It put me back so far, and I am already down for August too because of it.
Lastly, there is a guy problem. I met someone through my roommate about 2 months ago. I had just met him once. He needed someone to talk to, and my roommate didn't want to talk to him bc of her fiance so he asked if he could call me and talk about it. So he did. Well, I didn't hear from him again for another 3 weeks maybe. Then he texted me out of the blue and needed to talk. Well, after a week or so of hearing from him every once in a while, he started calling me a lot. He would call and talk to me for hours. He called almost every single day for 2 weeks. We talked about everything. He wanted to hang out and I agreed, but for whatever reason, it just didn't happen. He even wanted to come see me at work. Well, then I didn't hear from him for 3 days. So, I texted asking about his job search, and he only texted me back. Usually If I were to text, he would call and talk about it. But he didn't call, which I thought was weird. Then he called today and asked what year my car was. He was with a friend and her car did the same thing as mine where the ignition went out. So, I told him I would find the number of the guy who fixed mine and call him back. When I called back I could hear his friend in the background and I heard her say very clearly "my boyfriend is on the phone with a friend bc the same thing happened to her car." I was crushed. I am really going to miss talking to him too.
I can only figure that he was talking to her the same time as he was talking to me and for some reason it worked out and happened quicker. This has happened before. I was kinda dating this guy for almost 2 months. I didn't really know if we were dating or not, and then one night he said something about taking me where he did for the first date. I looked at him and said "date?" and he smiled real big and never did say anything else about it. Then he met a girl 2 days later, and now they are engaged.
I just want to cry so badly right now. Every chance that I could possibly have had to be with someone gets messed up by something ridiculous. I am really quite tired of it all, and I don't think that I can take anymore heartache. It is killing me. I have been on the verge of tears all day, and I am about to finally let them flow.
I am gonna go lay down now and have a good cry. Besides, I think I am past due for one.
Can we cry together then?
Posted by: D | 08/03/2008 at 07:53 PM
yes, yes we can
Posted by: ashleydaile | 08/04/2008 at 12:09 AM